Your Poetry Dot Com - Temporary Comfort

You have
no idea
what its like
to go through
each day
like its all ok
put on a smile
and push down
the pain
when really,
all you wanna do is
die
But all you can do is
cry
to tired to try
emotionally drained
emptiness consumes
they all just assume
that I'm ok in my room
but its becoming
too much
can't take anymore
all these feelings inside
build up like never before
try to ignore it
I just wanna quit
pushed over the edge
gonna blow
cant hide it anymore
Its beginning to show
I'm gonna explode
with the pressure building
everything뭩 blurry
my mind is in
overdrive
no place to run
and hide
there's only one way
one way to make it
stop
but why can't I do it
it should be so simple
I've planned it all
down to every last detail
how, when, where, and why
I know exactly what I'd do
but I can't go through
so instead
I'll just take the blade
and slice away
all the pain
again and again
till it hurts no more
in a bloody mess
I lie on the floor
behind locked doors
numbness sets in
I feel okay
but I know it'll only last
just for today.

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