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Telling myself that one day I’ll be good enough, I know is a lie.
Nothing ever seems good enough.
Living under their rules is extremely rough.
They still wonder why I tried to kill myself 3 months ago.
But death was better than staying here and acting like a little angel with a halo.

Because of who I am, I’ll always be trying to make them happy.
How hard I’m fighting, they’ll never see.
I want them to be proud of me,
Even if that means I’m always angry.
I’m the first child.
I’m afraid if I’m not good enough for them, I’ll be exiled.
Straight A’s still aren’t good enough for them.
But I’m their little gem;
So I don’t have a choice in it.
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Not Good Enough
Date: Friday, 2nd May 2008 @ 09:44:37 AM AEST
Topic: Sad Poetry

Contributed By: Bubbles02

Trying to live up to my parents expectations, wondering why I bother to try.
Telling myself that one day I’ll be good enough, I know is a lie.
Nothing ever seems good enough.
Living under their rules is extremely rough.
They still wonder why I tried to kill myself 3 months ago.
But death was better than staying here and acting like a little angel with a halo.

Because of who I am, I’ll always be trying to make them happy.
How hard I’m fighting, they’ll never see.
I want them to be proud of me,
Even if that means I’m always angry.
I’m the first child.
I’m afraid if I’m not good enough for them, I’ll be exiled.
Straight A’s still aren’t good enough for them.
But I’m their little gem;
So I don’t have a choice in it.
I have to be the best.

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