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    [title] => Little Green Monster
    [time] => 2013-12-04 22:40:48
    [hometext] => How jealously destroys people
    [bodytext] => im so jealous of you they say<br />
you are truly perfect in every way<br />
i wish i was you<br />
so strong beautiful and brave<br />
you stir up the little green monster in me<br />
envy, bright as the emerald city<br />
love finds you with ease<br />
life shall truly be a calm happy breeze<br />
these are the things girls say to me<br />
<br />
i love you so much<br />
forever togther we will be <br />
your beauty is like the sun<br />
and i cant live without thee<br />
these are the things boys say to me<br />
<br />
but then the dawn sneaks into my eyes<br />
to bring me back to my real life of lies<br />
no one is jealous of me or of my false beauty<br />
no breezes assist me, only harsh winds destroy me<br />
instead it is me who brings forth from the gates of hell<br />
that green creature who believes peers are much better than thee<br />
<br />
<br />
everyday my eyes burn as they see<br />
at least 10 girls whos irses sparkle and gleam, unlike me<br />
and around the corner my feet manage to drag,<br />
only to see 20 girls who have loving lads<br />
i tell myself deep in my core, one day that will be you<br />
being adored<br />
but as soon as this thought travels its course<br />
acting as a devilish phoenix, that monster rises <br />
and reminds me that no boy has ever or will ever love me, <br />
what a  suprise<br />
<br />
everyday that troll makes me ask<br />
why am i not as pretty, skinny, or smart as them<br />
as my disgusting eyes stare at my mishappen face in the mirror<br />
a salt sea begins to take my cheeks place<br />
<br />
everyday i see<br />
girls so much better than me<br />
their beauty cuts deep  like knives<br />
but  the worst is not wielded by a cruel witch<br />
but instead from the handle held by my closest ally <br />
this makes the pain seep through even more<br />
until it reaches through and satturates  my core<br />
<br />
when we were young, it was all the same<br />
we just laughed and played<br />
together we were caterpillars, exploring the world<br />
not a care dared to haunt us<br />
but a butterfly became her<br />
and me a worm<br />
there was no compare<br />
she was perfect, and everyone agreed, and i was just there<br />
<br />
i thought my dreams only haunted me at night<br />
but they had now taken flight<br />
my eyes wide open, my mind aware<br />
i began to hear that menicing  flare<br />
<br />
<br />
im so jealous of you they say<br />
you are truly perfect in every way<br />
i wish i was you<br />
so strong beautiful and brave<br />
you stir up the little green monster in me<br />
envy, bright as the emerald city<br />
love finds you with ease<br />
life shall truly be a calm happy breeze<br />
<br />
i love you so much<br />
forever togther we will be <br />
your beauty is like the sun<br />
and i cant live without thee<br />
these are the things they say <br />
but not to me<br />
who is just there <br />
but rather to her<br />
who to me no one would ever compare<br />
<br />
so as i watch her life climb the stairway to heaven<br />
mine has taken the highway to hell<br />
and as for my guide <br />
why who else but that moss colored dwell<br />
the little green monster who lives inside me<br />
<br />
i battle him each night<br />
but it is to no delight<br />
i hold on to hope, that one day hell be gone<br />
i can be happy with who i am and be thankful for all<br />
but my heart aches as it truly knows<br />
the time when he will finally disappears<br />
will be when he has compelty picked my soul clean<br />
and when there is nothing left of me<br />
he will move on to the next girl, and make her know <br />
 all her happiness, confidence, and dreams<br />
 are about to recieve a crushing blow<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
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                                                            <b>Little Green Monster</b>
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                                                        <font class="tiny"><b>Date:</b> Wednesday, 4th December 2013 @ 10:40:48 PM AEST<br><b>Topic:</b> Sad Poetry</font><br><br>
                                                        <font class="content">Contributed By: Annie2<br><br>
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                                                       im so jealous of you they say<br />
you are truly perfect in every way<br />
i wish i was you<br />
so strong beautiful and brave<br />
you stir up the little green monster in me<br />
envy, bright as the emerald city<br />
love finds you with ease<br />
life shall truly be a calm happy breeze<br />
these are the things girls say to me<br />
<br />
i love you so much<br />
forever togther we will be <br />
your beauty is like the sun<br />
and i cant live without thee<br />
these are the things boys say to me<br />
<br />
but then the dawn sneaks into my eyes<br />
to bring me back to my real life of lies<br />
no one is jealous of me or of my false beauty<br />
no breezes assist me, only harsh winds destroy me<br />
instead it is me who brings forth from the gates of hell<br />
that green creature who believes peers are much better than thee<br />
<br />
<br />
everyday my eyes burn as they see<br />
at least 10 girls whos irses sparkle and gleam, unlike me<br />
and around the corner my feet manage to drag,<br />
only to see 20 girls who have loving lads<br />
i tell myself deep in my core, one day that will be you<br />
being adored<br />
but as soon as this thought travels its course<br />
acting as a devilish phoenix, that monster rises <br />
and reminds me that no boy has ever or will ever love me, <br />
what a  suprise<br />
<br />
everyday that troll makes me ask<br />
why am i not as pretty, skinny, or smart as them<br />
as my disgusting eyes stare at my mishappen face in the mirror<br />
a salt sea begins to take my cheeks place<br />
<br />
everyday i see<br />
girls so much better than me<br />
their beauty cuts deep  like knives<br />
but  the worst is not wielded by a cruel witch<br />
but instead from the handle held by my closest ally <br />
this makes the pain seep through even more<br />
until it reaches through and satturates  my core<br />
<br />
when we were young, it was all the same<br />
we just laughed and played<br />
together we were caterpillars, exploring the world<br />
not a care dared to haunt us<br />
but a butterfly became her<br />
and me a worm<br />
there was no compare<br />
she was perfect, and everyone agreed, and i was just there<br />
<br />
i thought my dreams only haunted me at night<br />
but they had now taken flight<br />
my eyes wide open, my mind aware<br />
i began to hear that menicing  flare<br />
<br />
<br />
im so jealous of you they say<br />
you are truly perfect in every way<br />
i wish i was you<br />
so strong beautiful and brave<br />
you stir up the little green monster in me<br />
envy, bright as the emerald city<br />
love finds you with ease<br />
life shall truly be a calm happy breeze<br />
<br />
i love you so much<br />
forever togther we will be <br />
your beauty is like the sun<br />
and i cant live without thee<br />
these are the things they say <br />
but not to me<br />
who is just there <br />
but rather to her<br />
who to me no one would ever compare<br />
<br />
so as i watch her life climb the stairway to heaven<br />
mine has taken the highway to hell<br />
and as for my guide <br />
why who else but that moss colored dwell<br />
the little green monster who lives inside me<br />
<br />
i battle him each night<br />
but it is to no delight<br />
i hold on to hope, that one day hell be gone<br />
i can be happy with who i am and be thankful for all<br />
but my heart aches as it truly knows<br />
the time when he will finally disappears<br />
will be when he has compelty picked my soul clean<br />
and when there is nothing left of me<br />
he will move on to the next girl, and make her know <br />
 all her happiness, confidence, and dreams<br />
 are about to recieve a crushing blow<br />
<br />
<br />
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