Your Poetry Dot Com - ChristianGay

Array ( [sid] => 186852 [catid] => 1 [aid] => mick [title] => ChristianGay [time] => 2020-02-19 19:52:22 [hometext] => Written Before I came out to Myself- I am so happy I finally did. And I understand that God is not angry or disappointed. God knew before I did. [bodytext] => Questions and confusion occupy my day
worrying about what the world might say.
My fingers ripping out my hair,
I need to pray, but do I dare?

Confession takes its time to form
building up inside, a raging storm.
Wanting release at this pivotal time
begging to keep my dimming sublime.

I never thought I’d feel this way*

Death to all who know my plight
my life is judged without a fight-
weight of the world is crushing me
damned to hell, for eternity?

Hearing sounds- a ticking clock
mind and soul began taking stock
I want to live my life right now!
To God above, I will pledge my vow.

I was never raised to be this way*

Hands quiver as I reach to feel
forbidden fruit that I know will heal
all the pain that is cloaked in me
knowing unconditional love
will declare me free.

Grabbing hold my yearning lust
hoping I will learn to trust
the nature God has granted me
away from it- I will no longer flee.

I never wanted to be this way*

But I Am. It Is Me.
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ChristianGay
Date: Wednesday, 19th February 2020 @ 07:52:22 PM AEST
Topic: Sad Poetry

Contributed By: n2dep2care

Questions and confusion occupy my day
worrying about what the world might say.
My fingers ripping out my hair,
I need to pray, but do I dare?

Confession takes its time to form
building up inside, a raging storm.
Wanting release at this pivotal time
begging to keep my dimming sublime.

I never thought I’d feel this way*

Death to all who know my plight
my life is judged without a fight-
weight of the world is crushing me
damned to hell, for eternity?

Hearing sounds- a ticking clock
mind and soul began taking stock
I want to live my life right now!
To God above, I will pledge my vow.

I was never raised to be this way*

Hands quiver as I reach to feel
forbidden fruit that I know will heal
all the pain that is cloaked in me
knowing unconditional love
will declare me free.

Grabbing hold my yearning lust
hoping I will learn to trust
the nature God has granted me
away from it- I will no longer flee.

I never wanted to be this way*

But I Am. It Is Me.

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