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[title] => The Freshman
[time] => 2005-10-28 08:19:39
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[bodytext] => He comes home from college And in one weekend has more social engagements than I do throughout the whole month It’s easy to be proud of him, because it reflects well on me to have such a popular brother But it’s hard not to be envious, because it reflects ill of me not to have the same kind of prospects For it is my people skills that have always set us apart But apparently he has even surpassed me in that Although I suppose the quality over quantity counts for something I’m just not sure what I was privileged enough to get to spend some time with him this Thanksgiving Although I suspect a large part of that stems from the fact that I bought him alcohol He talks to me now He is truly in his element, gleaming brighter and more intensely than ever He is happy He is my brother and that is all I can ask for him Yet I still cry at night because he never struggles He doesn’t have to study He can get away with drinking a beer and then driving under age He has friends now that he calls his family Every day of my life is a struggle in some way or the other I work my ass off in school and get mediocre grades I am 21 and refuse to drive if I’ve had more than two beers I don’t think my friends take good enough care of me to be considered family He wants to be a writer I have no doubt that he will become whatever it is that he so desires I try to be humble I try to be supportive But contaminated jealousy surges through my veins The two emotions clash like a pink and orange plaid shirt put together with a purple and green polka dot skirt I was never one to match anyway, but this is getting ridiculous It’s becoming easier to accept that I have an older-younger brother What’s hard is not to view it as one more failure on my part I long for the day in which I can be proud of us both at the same time [comments] => 1 [counter] => 193 [topic] => 48 [informant] => EsotericWsdm4 [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => EmotionalPoetry )
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