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My Suicide
Contributed by
lilbabe
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Thursday, 13th April 2006 @ 07:48:25 PM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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The razor sinks into my skin
Bringing back the numb feeling I yearn for daily
It's a release of the pain I feel within
Blood flows down my arm in narrow streams
Inner healing traded for physical bleeding
Taking me away to a world in my dreams
The blood now covers the blade and my hand
I ignore the pain and dream away
In my head, my toes are sinking into the watery sand
I think, why do I have to be this way?
Why am I feeling this pain?
My life is a repeat everyday
I come home, cut, fight, and cry
It's always the same
And the feeling won't go away, I just want to die
The razor won't kill me
But it's going deeper as the days keep coming
Go under the skin, drain away the hurt, can't you see
I'm dying, pulling away from the world, whimpering in pain
I just stare at the ceiling, then reach over and grab a pen
And the sobs burst out, they were too hard to contain
In my notebook, I write my death letter
Letting go of the pain and the hurt I've felt through out the years
As the words scribble across the page, I start to feel better
The page is covered in blood, but it doesn't matter anymore
I start to go weak and feel dizzy
My hands and eyes are sore
But I keep writing
Everything I've wanted to say,
All of the apologies for the fighting
I drop the paper and my eyes open and close one more time
My breathing becomes slower and drifts off
And I slip into Eternity with the comfort that the pain is over, as is my lifetime
The letter holds all the pain I've held in and couldn't let out
When you see it, I'll be long gone
And you'll know what the hate was about
Why I would fight, cry, and you'll know why I cut
You'll know why I hurt and who hurt me
And why everyone thought I was a ****
The front door opens and you walk in
You yell, "Hey honey, I'm home. Look what I bought today,"
You may want to start over again and forget our grudges we hold within
But when you walk into my room,
I'll be gone, no longer here
And you'll look around in the place of my doom
Yes, I'm really dead
I was too weak to stand the pain
Are you regretting everything you said?
Well, don't, it wasn't only you
I had many problems
Others had hurt me too
You read the letter and cry
You tears mix with my blood,
Why, oh why, did your baby have to die?
I'll tell you why...
I was hurting and couldn't take it
I wasn't smart enough to get help, so I left without a good-bye
My body lies on the bed and you look at me,
Waiting for me to get up and say it's all a joke
I'm so young how could this be?
Well, young people die everyday
Dying with all the anger they felt
Everything they refused to say
Sorry, Mom, I had to leave
I know I hurt you
But just have faith, believe
I'm not hurting anymore that's why I died
It was the pain that killed me
And every bitter tear I'd cried
Move on, go on
Live your life without me
You can't help me now 'cause I'm gone
Copyright ©
lilbabe
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2006-04-13 19:48:25]
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Re: My Suicide
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by Michael_Bevins on
Thursday, 13th April 2006 @ 09:38:24 PM AEST
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| Very touching. brought tears to my eyes. I relate so well to stuff like this. Great job. |
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Re: My Suicide
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by drtylilsecret on
Thursday, 13th April 2006 @ 11:29:00 PM AEST
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omg, that's one of the best suicide poems i've read, it stated everything so clearly, not so much of that overused metaphorical pain stuff. it was....hard hitting, painfully real, i absolutely loved it.
~natalya |
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Re: My Suicide
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by Former_Member on
Friday, 14th April 2006 @ 12:58:58 AM AEST
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| Excellent poem. Know this feeling very well. I feel your pain and hurt. hope that everything works out.. |
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Re: My Suicide
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by aegurly on
Friday, 14th April 2006 @ 02:29:16 PM AEST
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GREAT WRITE !!!
AEGURLY!!!! |
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Re: My Suicide
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by marylou on
Friday, 14th April 2006 @ 08:17:30 PM AEST
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i can feel the pain in this poem it almost made me cry
marylou |
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Re: My Suicide
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by ravendominique on
Monday, 24th April 2006 @ 09:17:57 PM AEST
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| Sounds so lonely |
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Re: My Suicide
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by Nessa_Lee on
Wednesday, 17th May 2006 @ 08:52:01 PM AEST
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Absolutely wonderful!
~*~Nes~*~ |
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Re: My Suicide
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by drtylilsecret on
Sunday, 21st May 2006 @ 04:10:10 AM AEST
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fantastically written but so sad........and i just noticed that i was posted on my best friends birthday...i remember feeling like that that day....i hope you're better now,
~natalya
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