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[title] => just a tiny spark
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[bodytext] => The fire drummed relentlessly in my veins and I stretched in hopes of lessening the pressure but was unsuccessful. There was an opposite effect of the fire spreading to find places I had tried to hide by contracting the muscles. I wanted to deny this feeling. It was too much, too soon. This kind of something just didn’t happen to me, couldn’t happen to me. I had accepted that fact long ago and settled it within me so as to understand how not normal I was so why now? What catalyst has caused this tempest? There is no rest for me because of the burning I can’t control as it grows with its intensity. I needed some kind of release, some kind of relief; the coldest thing imaginable would do fine. But like everything else I’m not lucky enough to get what I want. And now something has happened which I didn’t want and here I am shocked and confused and uncomfortable in my burning skin. I missed my resolute calmness, my indifference to things that lead to unpleasantness. For once, I had lost the sureness that I was so used to possessing or the sanguinity in accepting new information that fit into my concept of the universe’s philosophy. That clarity I used to have was now gone replaced by this irrational fire. I didn’t know if I could accept this new twist in my life. I was afraid for the first time in a long time and all because you surprised me. [comments] => 1 [counter] => 172 [topic] => 43 [informant] => twick [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => oops )
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