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[title] => Transcends
[time] => 2010-11-18 19:58:02
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[bodytext] => The pain transcends my heart, And it travels to my mind, The hurt becomes fury, As a way to deny the reality and the Loss I am feeling in myself. I weep and sleep and burn in rage interrupted by despair, underwritten with confusion, And I force myself to hold Back the hurtful words and the Guilt ridden thoughts that float In my mind, hoping to know you Hurt inside like I do. My short term memory haunts me When the clouds lift, and tries To bring me back down, where I won’t get up. The memories make me doubt the Love we shared and look at what I Will never have again. And I weep Again and I sleep, again. Try to sleep, My mind continues to wrestle the idea That one night is amazing and the next you wish never happened. No control over the road it takes, Fury and sadness contemplate The ways to heal, to regain motivation, And not let this rule me. Not Let it fight me back to the ground And beat me to a pulpy mass Giving up on everything I have. My stomach yearns for food And my mind refuses it satisfaction, Because I have been refused What I need, in you, and the future We planned to share, Feelings of fault for the pain, Relying on another, letting it pull Me in so quickly, falling for The ideas so easily, trusting, I know that is the easy way, The comfortable way, the old way, To deal with pain. And I am not that Person anymore. Though it feels infinitely Lonely and sorrowful and never changing. No more kisses and cuddles, but for you with another. [comments] => 2 [counter] => 112 [topic] => 48 [informant] => UpsAndDowns [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 5 [ratings] => 1 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => EmotionalPoetry )
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