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[sid] => 51614
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => Tarnished Innocence
[time] => 2004-06-12 19:39:40
[hometext] => This is painful. I don't know why I let ***** like this happen. Now it's all ruined.
[bodytext] => I let it. Why didn't I try to stop it? So innocent, where'd that all go? Flew through the window, in the rainy steamed up windows of the '99 Honda on this Saturday afternoon. And you, your expert hands, reached the Eden of my mind. Evoked the feelings that I wanted, taking the innocence I had. I gave the innocence I had. I didn't give it all. You were strong, made me feel so safe inside your arms, like the world couldn't get at me. But you can't hold me forever. You can't hold me forever. And the world comes back in to haunt me, and I'm left with tarnished innocence. I'm left with wishing for tomorrow, left with wishing for you to be my life. But the world keeps getting in the way. And the memory of your hands mixes with the moment now of dark gray clouds dropping tears that refuse to fall from my eyes. My asinine attempts pathetically failing. You hesitate, you wait, give me a moment to get impatient, gave me a moment to want it, gave me just a moment until I would have died for it. And then my body ached, pressed against yours longing for the comfort possible from someone's body so close to mine. And I revelled in the feelings that flowed among my parts. But when we had to part, all I was left with was a reminder of my pathetic attempts to say no. And now it haunts me, it haunts him. I hurt the one I actually cared for. All you wanted were the feelings. I thought that was all I wanted. I thought the moment would be enough, just a moment. That was all I wanted. But now, this is what I've got, the pain inside, the death inside, the tarnished innocence. Just tarnished innocence, that you don't even want. And now the one who truly cared can't see the me he fell in love with. Now no one wants this, this tarnished innocence. [comments] => 2 [counter] => 173 [topic] => 22 [informant] => waos [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 4 [ratings] => 1 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => LostLove )
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