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Array ( [sid] => 67409 [catid] => 1 [aid] => mick [title] => but what if i can't? [time] => 2004-10-14 12:36:08 [hometext] => [bodytext] => i been thinkin
maybe i could begin again
build myself
from the bottom up
you know?
and start with just me

i've cried too much over him
so much i feel i'm permanently blue
i've felt my world crumble
over and over and over
again

can i stand this time
though he's paralyzed me
can i breathe this time
though his hand is around
my neck

can i see this time
if i don't get it right
he'll be the reason i fade
and i fear that one day
i'll just lose this fight

too many times i begged
him to be my saviour
the one who would take me away
away from the pain
but HE
he was the one who supplied
the pills to keep me
keep me addicted and i'm ashamed

now i've overdossed
can't walk without it
can't sleep if i ain't got him
i've failed this test
and i'm scared
that i'll fail it again

can i walk away this time
even though my knees tremble
can i breathe this time
though he's grasping my throat
swearing that he loves me
but would kill me before
it crossed his mind...
to just let me go

yea i been thinkin
maybe i could begin again
build myself
from the bottom up
you know?
and start with just me....

BUT WHAT IF I CAN'T.... [comments] => 0 [counter] => 186 [topic] => 61 [informant] => taintedorange21 [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => selfstruggles )
but what if i can't?

Contributed by taintedorange21 on Thursday, 14th October 2004 @ 12:36:08 PM in AEST
Topic: selfstruggles



i been thinkin
maybe i could begin again
build myself
from the bottom up
you know?
and start with just me

i've cried too much over him
so much i feel i'm permanently blue
i've felt my world crumble
over and over and over
again

can i stand this time
though he's paralyzed me
can i breathe this time
though his hand is around
my neck

can i see this time
if i don't get it right
he'll be the reason i fade
and i fear that one day
i'll just lose this fight

too many times i begged
him to be my saviour
the one who would take me away
away from the pain
but HE
he was the one who supplied
the pills to keep me
keep me addicted and i'm ashamed

now i've overdossed
can't walk without it
can't sleep if i ain't got him
i've failed this test
and i'm scared
that i'll fail it again

can i walk away this time
even though my knees tremble
can i breathe this time
though he's grasping my throat
swearing that he loves me
but would kill me before
it crossed his mind...
to just let me go

yea i been thinkin
maybe i could begin again
build myself
from the bottom up
you know?
and start with just me....

BUT WHAT IF I CAN'T....




Copyright © taintedorange21 ... [ 2004-10-14 12:36:08]
(Date/Time posted on site)





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