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[aid] => Mick
[title] => this 'demon' inside me
[time] => 2002-12-17 23:20:00
[hometext] => i've been suffering from depression for years and i self harm, i dont like doing it and when i do cut myself it is as if its not me who is doing it, but another person
[bodytext] => An urge comes over me,
One I cannot control,
Its like a demon inside me,
Possessing my soul.
I don’t want to do it,
And I try to fight,
But this ‘demon’ finds blood,
A beautiful sight.
I don’t know what im doing,
When I cause myself harm,
The ‘demon’ feels accomplished,
When it looks upon my arm.
Im sick of being like this,
Wish this ‘demon’ would go away,
But it keeps coming back,
When ive had a bad day.
I don’t like the marks,
That are on my arm,
But ive been hurting so badly,
So I have 2 self harm.
Feelings are just feelings,
Cant explain how I feel,
But the cuts in my wrists,
Instead r real.
These cuts u see,
Let me know im alive,
But sometimes I wish,
That I could just die.
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[counter] => 313
[topic] => 36
[informant] => the_temptation_of_suicide
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[ratings] => 2
[editpoem] => 1
[associated] =>
[topicname] => Suicide
)
this 'demon' inside me
Contributed by
the_temptation_of_suicide
on
Tuesday, 17th December 2002 @ 11:20:00 PM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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An urge comes over me,
One I cannot control,
Its like a demon inside me,
Possessing my soul.
I don’t want to do it,
And I try to fight,
But this ‘demon’ finds blood,
A beautiful sight.
I don’t know what im doing,
When I cause myself harm,
The ‘demon’ feels accomplished,
When it looks upon my arm.
Im sick of being like this,
Wish this ‘demon’ would go away,
But it keeps coming back,
When ive had a bad day.
I don’t like the marks,
That are on my arm,
But ive been hurting so badly,
So I have 2 self harm.
Feelings are just feelings,
Cant explain how I feel,
But the cuts in my wrists,
Instead r real.
These cuts u see,
Let me know im alive,
But sometimes I wish,
That I could just die.
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2002-12-17 23:20:00]
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by Delusions on
Wednesday, 18th December 2002 @ 01:39:54 AM AEST
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I like this one alot.... i go through these feelings a lot as well.... i dont want to do it.... but its like it just happens...like you cant control it....
keep it up ~Delusions~
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by wyrd_faerie on
Wednesday, 18th December 2002 @ 08:42:05 AM AEST
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| yeah...i know exactly how you feel...you described it really well... |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by bobotheclown on
Wednesday, 18th December 2002 @ 02:11:08 PM AEST
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This is written realy well I feel this way many times. This poem is so sad. Buddy keep yer chin up you can get through this and whats more important is you WILL.
- Bobo (Joel) |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by OreO on
Wednesday, 18th December 2002 @ 03:29:44 PM AEST
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Well....what do i say.....what does one say to this...or what would you like me to say maybe is what i should be saying....here: i know how to say it.: Ahem...once i had someone in my life that had his own "demon" inside to..and my name was marked on his arm and he always told me...no matter how things were between me and him whether they were good or bad....he would say...."You are my sanity" "You are the only person who can save me"....i related to how he was feeling so deeply though because i myself have sat in a place where i cut almost everyday before in my life...there have been times that i've cut since being there in that dark place but only when im punishing myself.....i dont cut to feel like most people do...but i can certainly relate to where your coming from here...so if you need to talk about your "demon" that's inside of you....i am a good listener .....my heart is right there with you ...
.:*~*:.OreO.:*~*:. |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by nightrider on
Wednesday, 18th December 2002 @ 04:06:07 PM AEST
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| this is a really good description of this... i "self-harm" too... this is just really good... what more can i say? JSM!!! |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by orgygirl on
Wednesday, 18th December 2002 @ 10:08:04 PM AEST
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| I know exactly how you feel. |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by Wrybod on
Monday, 20th January 2003 @ 05:43:46 PM AEST
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What the Demon wants is your space. It,s trying to get you to move "over." Listen-up good! There's nothing there
My experience was that a moment before the impact (facing certain death) the brain switches off! It was as though I'd been watching telly and somebody cut the power.
Total darkness nothing. I was not even registering the darkness.
How many days this lasted I'll never know.
From nowhere I saw the small corner of a window.......I began to realise that if I concentrated hard I could make it grow.......
and grow .....and grow.....until a voice said "You've come back to us then."
I have never done anything but enjoy life since every hour of every day.
About seven years later I suddenly realised I could smell bacon cooking. At last my sense of smell had returned and I was whole again. I rushed out into the garden (in my pyjamas) and smelled every flower I could find.
DONT GO! THERE IS NOTHING THERE! |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by RICHARD_CAMPBELL on
Thursday, 23rd January 2003 @ 05:31:43 PM AEST
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HI, THE TEMPTATION-OF-SUICIDE,
THIS IA A GOOD WRITE.BUT YOU HAVE THE POWER TO FREE YOUR SELF,
SAY THESE WORDS" LORD JESUS HELP ME,FORGIVE ME OF MY SIN.DEMON I REBUKE YOU IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST THE SON OF GOD AMEN" BELIEVE AN RECEIVE.I'LL BE PRAYING FOR YOU.
RICHARD CAMPBELL |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by Fiona on
Saturday, 25th January 2003 @ 05:53:30 PM AEST
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| Wow, this is one of the better poems I've read today. Probably because I have the same demon and can relate to what you're saying. Excellent write hun, God Bless. |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by M on
Tuesday, 18th February 2003 @ 11:29:12 AM AEST
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| i really like this poem, and i know exactly what you mean, about it being a different person. keep on posting your poems, i like this one a lot, looking forward for more. |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by LayDownPlayDead on
Sunday, 2nd March 2003 @ 01:54:51 PM AEST
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| Wow, I really like this poem. As a self-injurer myself I know how you feel and I can relate to this so well. I love how you described it in your writing. Very nice write. |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by hardcoreputa on
Monday, 10th March 2003 @ 11:11:11 PM AEST
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| i had my friend read this. she has been having a hard time expressing why she does this and we both agree that u found the right words. anyways, i think it is one of my favorite poems i have read there is so much feeling and everything. my friend was commited into the mental hospital for this and has been getting help. she still self harms, but its not as deep or as often as before... well my suggestion is to get a phsycoligist, i was skeptical about them and so was my friend but i think that for some people they can help... anyways great write... ~Apryl |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by afraid_of_fear on
Thursday, 27th March 2003 @ 04:33:20 PM AEST
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| wow, this poem is incredible. i know where you're coming from - i used to cut too. i'm pretty new on here but if u ever need to chat, just PM me. |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by SuicidalSon on
Wednesday, 14th May 2003 @ 05:30:02 PM AEST
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Most of these people dont even understand what you are saying they say they do and tell you things only get better and to hang in there.
For what reason I am a true suicidal person
I have over two hundred scars on both arms not to mention others and Im telling you that youll never get over it if your as true as you say you are. In the meantime while your still living check out some other true suicidal poetry it makes me laugh |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by SuicidalSon on
Wednesday, 14th May 2003 @ 05:33:38 PM AEST
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I dont speak for temptaion I speak for me
and if you belive your prayers will save him
why in the hell did your fake god put the demon inside us Reply back if you have an answer but chances are you dont |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by Wrybod on
Wednesday, 21st May 2003 @ 05:48:09 PM AEST
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There is a way to put an end to it.
Read my very first poem. |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by Destiny on
Thursday, 12th June 2003 @ 05:49:19 PM AEST
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| it's insane how often I feel like this and how well you said what I feel. I guess the only thing I can say is that I've learned not to think it can't get any worse because it's always a lie. |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by Destiny on
Thursday, 12th June 2003 @ 05:52:44 PM AEST
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| suicidal, he may not be right and you may not be either, I'm not judging who's right or wrong but don't speak against someone elses beliefs please. I don't believe in "God" either but it doesn't mean I have the right to say he's not there to other people who do believe. |
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Re: this 'demon' inside me
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by Merry on
Sunday, 7th September 2003 @ 04:58:11 PM AEST
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your poem is great - your feelings scare me - I don't understand them and wouldn't pretend to - I do understand depression and suicide - most people do but are afrraid to admit to it - I've neer tried to kill myself - not on purpose anyway - I tend to wallow in depression until everything fades to black - hope you find some peace/happiness - keep writing - I think it helps to control negative energy -
merry |
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