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[sid] => 88226
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[aid] => mick
[title] => Wasted Youth
[time] => 2005-03-21 15:35:16
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[bodytext] => I lost my sanity-I automatically was called a basketcase, its a tragedy-called everything so much it aggrevates, I know that from the beginning I was sad and lonely, maybe some of it was because my father refused to hold me, I just wanted for once to make my family proud, I learned everything a person could-I still think I let dad down, I cant even look him in the eyes-for he knows of my failures, But I graduated and quit my job to become a sailor, they wanted to break me-asked me if I was neurotic-demonic, honest to God-the world wanted me to remain unconcious, now the spark needed to get the flame is voratious, and the anger I show from pain is contagious, I look in the mirror and hold in the pain of being abandoned, It gets more impossible knowing they wont show me compassion, Ive been through my life in torture but I can say that I survived, but even if I didnt show the pain on the outside-I cried inside, I never had a childhood-I spend my years trying to erase it, all those years getting beat-I guess thats how it got wasted, I'm still trying to find the way out of this emotional problem, if earth is hell and death is heaven-im going on vacation to the tropics... [comments] => 1 [counter] => 154 [topic] => 48 [informant] => dvsnme816 [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 7 [ratings] => 2 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => EmotionalPoetry )
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