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i can't keep doing this to myself
Contributed by
desolantdreamer
on
Friday, 15th June 2007 @ 08:13:38 AM in AEST
Topic:
EmotionalPoetry
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I can't just be his friend anymore
Of course we aren't even that
But just being near him is enough
To convince me this is too tough
I can't be close to him anymore
It's just too hard, he's just too far
I know it's been 8 years. I know I say I'm over it
But still, I can't help but cry
I really did try
But I have to give up
And realize I'm outta luck
Silly girl...foolish girl...
I should have known I couldn't do it
Why? Why did I put myself through it?
I'm standing all alone
With no one I can call my own
I am watching him so fondly
I remember some silly flashbacks
And the tears start coming back
So close...I was so close...
I just wasn't good enough...
Not for him, and not for you...
He does those little things
That make me forget I can't love you
And cause this heartache all over again.
I'm over you, I truely am
I've moved on to another man
Yet still you make me hurt
Being close to you is poison
Every little thing you do,
Makes me want to be with you
Don't you understand what you're doing to me?
I know you don't mean to
I know you don't intend to
But you affect me...
In a way I don't want you to.
It hurts me...like poking your bruises...
You being near, only pushes on the bruise you left on my heart.
I tried so hard to deal with the pain
And stay your friend...more or less
But I see now, you don't want that either...
And It's too painful for me.
Let's just say we tried and move on
It's better than this anyday
I wish I could get rid of the memories
Make myself believe the lies I tell myself
Say the past never happened, and that all the pain is just a dream
But then I see you and I can't deny
I felt that way, I feel that way
I wish I could just make it go away
This pain I feel is so intense, I just can't stop it
I lie to myself every day, saying 'you're over him, its okay!'
But it isn't okay, you're still here, still you...
You cannot change, I don't want you to
But I can't change either, don't ask me to
I like who I like, and who I like is you
I know, it bugs me too
Just be happy you're your character
Because you don't feel the pain
You don't feel the hurt
But I'd rather it be me bearing it, any day...
Because I don't want any hurt to befall you.
Copyright ©
desolantdreamer
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2007-06-15 08:13:38] (Date/Time posted on
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