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confusion
Contributed by
lostforgood
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Saturday, 22nd March 2003 @ 06:05:00 PM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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So confused and so lost too
Where to go, what to do.
Who can I trust...
Who is there to lean on
It hurts so bad.
Why can't someone just come and scoop me off my feet..
And hold me and tell me they are there for me.
Why do I feel so alone when I really am not
Why must I push people so far away from me that its impossible for them to help.
I'm so confused
So lost,
So used.
It's all my fault because I've been abused...
So many lies and all these failed tries
My lack of success brings no surprise.
I apologize to all of you
For what I do,
All the pain and worries I must cause,
And do not deny it because I know I do
I'm so confused
I am so scared, there's so much there
I want to tell but I dare not
I know not who I can trust,
But I must trust you...
But I can't...
But then I hurt you....
Oh so confused
I wish I could cry with someone,
Just sit down and bawl
But no, whenever things come up with me
I sit there and grin ..that big ulgy grin...
I'm fine, I'm okay, leave me alone, some other day......
That's what I say-
But inside I'm cryin,
I'm bad, I hurt, comfort me, never leave
I'm so confused
I wish I could make people happy,
And make them feel as precious as they can make me....
But now I cannot even do that deed..
I'm so confused
Where have I gone wrong?
Oh so fat, oh so ugly,
Such a failure, such a misleader
You sit and try to tell me I'm good,
That I am going somewhere big in life,
But no, you aren't listening
I have lied so well
That you cannot even believe me when I correct my own awful lies.....
I am ugly through and through, there is no hope, this is true,
I am stuck being blue.
I'm really trying, I really am
Perhaps I need to take more time to do things I enjoy so I get out of this jam...
I'm so confused
Who am I?
What have I become?
Why am I here?
Where am I going?
When is my time?
I am lost for good.
I will wait here for now
Wishing for someone to find me,
Whomever this is, the one to find me, hurry please..
Ill be waiting,
If its more than one, all the better
Either way, Ill be waiting
Wishing, waiting, time is frozen
Loneliness will eat at me
So if when you arrive I am not all there
Give me time, I will come back
Gain my trust, and hold me up
If my body lies there limp and lifeless, do not give up
I beg of you, come to me anyway for I will not be dead quite yet
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2003-03-22 18:05:00]
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Re: confusion
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by SpreadYourWings on
Saturday, 22nd March 2003 @ 06:15:10 PM AEST
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Why do I feel so alone when I really am not
Why must I push people so far away from me that its impossible for them to help.
I too feel this way to often to count. I am in a state of seeking and understanding what exactly is going on. I myself am going through hard times while no one else seems to understand why. They don't understand what I feel and see, like how you stated above. Best of luck to you in the future.
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