On this morning, I wake up early, Its 3 a.m.
I lay in strife, Toss and turn, My mind, I condemn.
The dream, So livid, so real, The lights are dim.
Pictures fly, In my mind, Across my eyes.
The happiness, Once I had, You and I.
A silhouette, I see its you, I want to die. Exhaustion speaks, I take that pill, So I can sleep.
I slumber, And in my dream, My soul weeps.
I awake, I realize, Im in to deep.
4:42 a.m. I lay in strife, I cry.
I sit up, I reach for the blade, Across my wrist it slides.
I curl back up, Lick at my wound, Sleep, and accept your lie.
In my sleep, I have a dream, I see your smile.
A wicked grin, Laughing at my wrists, How could you be so vile? , Im disgusted, In my throat, I feel the bile.
5:16 a.m. I sit up and scream, I turn over and puke.
I ponder, How could I, I used to find you so cute.
But still yet, These emotions, I cant rebuke.
I roll over, I focus on the ceiling, I shut my eyes to sleep.
It never comes, I lay in consciousness, Until I feel the urge to pee.
7:16 a.m. I get up, I get ready.
But still yet, I feel so unhappy, As if Im drowning.
I paste on the false smile, The fake happiness, No, to them Im not mourning,
I walk out the door, Hello, I say, Hello, Sunday Morning.
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2010-04-13 20:06:30] (Date/Time posted on
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