Voiceless Self
Contributed by
Grace_and_Glory
on
Saturday, 29th May 2010 @ 01:49:04 PM in AEST
Topic:
anguished
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October 17, 2009
Where did I come from? I havent always been here. Formed out of need; for that moment, I held the load. Its safe with me, inward I received it, so you can scuff off the filth and disconnect from it. Will I always lift this load? Mute covered shadow, I cannot share this part of me, not even with myself. Im weighed back, locked in silence, forever to hold. Now Im always watching, Im always here, invariably squelched. My senses are numb, thats how I was created, with consequence I reflect the wholeness I protect- though I live in isolation. Nobody sees me; no one knows Im here. Only at an unconscious level, to myself I whisper. In moments, when I am laid bare, to the surface, like a sore exposed, chapped in open air, paralyzed in fear. When I speak, no sound is uttered, what I see, no remembrance revealed. Locked in stone, movement shutter, what I grip, the shock, the horror. Eyes ablaze, they're locked in dilation, forever burning, re-living, re-living. My archaic mood never changing. So strong these walls, though I feel weak, I cannot break the silence, wounds so deep, acid I cannot let it leak. No prayer to separate, no chance to unify, least this decay be released and burn through, leaving the outward scarred too. My emotions so mangled, emotions so thick, but I swallow them, always, I swallow them.
Copyright 2009 Danielle K. Griner
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