I had all the confidence in the world

So long as the world stayed away

I was dirty going on dusty

With pristine knees- I never scraped them

because I found that running was risky

See, I stayed in the shadow

Wallflower, that was my pathos

I was one man, who didn't know who he was

And the future was a dream, that I couldn't wake from

Never stopped and thought, calculate what I wanted

I made bad impulse calls, and consequence? Yeah I got it

But I lived and I learned

I became something more

And no matter what they say

I look up and on to brighter days

SAVE ME!

That's what I used to scream and I'd say

SAVE ME!

What are you doing? I'm struggling here!

SAVE ME!

One of us needs to move, because we're both in my way

SAVE ME!

There's precision in this indecision, I'm cut with a scalpel of fear!

So please save me now

I'm trapped and I'm lost

And I don't know how

But I want to get- I want to get-

I want to get out!

See, nobody tells you how to handle your ****

Or if they do, it just don't register and click

Cause the values you carry, they are deep down inside of you

Take that to the bank, and that's funding scholarly

My cousin said scared money don't make no money

And that's true, but arrogant money will spirit away from you

To infinity and beyond like a helium balloon

And when that happens the face with pie will belong solely to you

It's so strange to think, that I feel so down

About where I've gotten in life, like I've lazied around

But there's nothing to that negativity that's even profound

We are our own parents, and patience is our right to allow

If you know me- if you truly know me

You know heart to heart is my favorite ****

Because if we're both honest and forthcoming

Death is a fear so far, I have not an inkling to start running

So how did I not know?

I was caught in my own throws?

Victim of my own critic society sowed?

That no matter how hard I looked I'd never find woes

But even still I cried out at the top of my lungs

SAVE ME!

This world is scary and dark and I'm being torn apart!

SAVE ME!

They say it's sink or swim and I'm the furthest from ready within

SAVE ME!

Help me feel I belong! Help me feel like I have what I've lost!

SAVE ME!

I'm drowning in fear and I can't see- but it's water it's clear

I looked back at the past and saw abandonment

I looked to the future and I saw the cure but not how to manage it

But that was a ruse- planted by fear

The women in my life were beautiful lures

No matter what they said I never trusted them-

Not truly, not deeply, not humbly nor duly

When they're not around or not responding

My conscience nags and stabs- this relationship they're absconding

Shut up! Stop it! She wouldn't do that!

No! I don't dare leave her alone to let her prove that!

I need this! I need us! I need someone to love!

Her smiles are sweet and she loves me so tenderly

It's like I'm my best self!

But it's a lie. A digital rendering

There's no humanity in either of us

We're just living as uses with emotional measuring

But we can turn that round

We can find the strength

To free the blinds from our eyes when our cards are down

And bet on ourselves and go all in

And say

SAVE ME!

I can see it! The glimpse of the light!

SAVE ME!

I want to reach it! I want this to be right!

SAVE ME!

I don't want to keep running! I want to fight!

SAVE ME!

I'll save you my friend! My treasured love and my kin!

I'll do what I can

To help you escape

But the climb is your own

So craft your ascent!

Nobody ever tells you

That the advice everyone gives

Isn't meant for who you are

It's meant for who you will have then been

When you go through all the ****

And it's caked on your skin

It doesn't help you prepare for what's going to happen

It helps you learn to accept it

And you come to realize

That for every time you fall down into that deep dark abyss

There's always that moment to make

To fight for, to see love as the sister of war

Passionate loyalty to this realm and this soul

That all of this pain is natural and all is as it should be

Beautiful and calm, the resolution of a bomb

Or the equivalent, peace, a tool of love

And armed with that fact, I retract the act

If even for just one day, one week, one month, one year

It's clear and the answer's here, the words are now drawing near

Save me

I'm not afraid- at last I'm at peace

Save me

It's so quiet- I'm not scared in the least

Save me

I don't need to scream and I don't need to yell

Save me

Join me! Let's enjoy this together as well!

Save me

I don't need to cry out anymore

Save me

I don't need to worry about who stays and who goes

It's so much more fulfilling

To keep company that appreciates

That treasures and celebrates

And deeply embraces you

And the partners who are incompatible

Aren't much more than regrettable

But don't sacrifice your peace for an illusion or two

Because there's someone to always keep safe

And that someone is you

So I'll remember to

Save me