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Daily Depression
Contributed by
WorthlesSanity666
on
Friday, 5th March 2004 @ 09:36:15 PM in AEST
Topic:
DarkPoetry
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It starts with boredom,
and grows from there.
I stab myself with a pen.
Sixteen times on the hand.
I feel better.
Then I grow even sadder.
When the people taunt me,
Im still okay,
I dont let it get me down.
Its pretty stupid really.
Then feelings come
from no where.
They devour me,
memories come surging back,
throwing me into depression.
I go to lunch
and stand in line.
I hate the people there.
I want to hurt them.
They stare at me and
touch me.
I want to shove them,
push them way,
for they are too close.
I dont even want to
joke with my friends,
though I do not want
to hurt them.
I just want to be left alone.
I do not eat my lunch.
I give it away.
I put my head on the table,
thinking dark thoughts.
My friends cheer me up,
in their own way.
I joke for a while,
maybe Im even happy.
But it doesnt last.
I start thinking more things.
I plan my suicide.
My friend gives me helpful tips.
I feel a little better...
only to sink again.
I walk to her locker,
and sink to the floor in a heap.
I want to get out;
I want to leave this building,
be free of all restrictions.
She understands,
and tells me I can leave if I want.
But I know I cant really.
As much as Id like to.
We set off and go to class.
I am immobile,
Im to sad to move.
All I can do is sit
with my head in my hands.
We go to the back of the room,
for a study hall.
My friends and I sit together.
But inside Im far away.
I think of all the ways to die,
I think of cutting a cross on my back,
and ripping out my spine.
My friend understands.
I rest my head on the desk,
eyes close.
I cant bear it anymore.
I need to escape as much as I can.
I ask for her pencil
and stab at my fingers.
The stinging feels good.
But it doesnt help enough.
My inner pain is still there.
I cry inside.
I feel there is nothing I can do.
So I sit there,
thinking my thoughts,
dying inside,
hoping someday this will end.
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2004-03-05 21:36:15]
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Re: Daily Depression
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by Sweet-Poison on
Saturday, 6th March 2004 @ 09:11:07 AM AEST
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| I've read a few of your poems, though I feel I can relate to this one a great deal.. I have emotions almost identical to how you write yours here.. Great poem, T'is always nice to read something I can relate to.. Well done =) |
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