|
 Menu
|
|
|
|
|
Social
|
|
|
|
|
i am the shadow
Contributed by
Cancer
on
Sunday, 23rd January 2005 @ 10:59:15 PM in AEST
Topic:
DarkPoetry
|
Every line is blurring
blame grows harder to place
the path is not so clear now
if it ever really was
Alone with a shadow
that's become so alien to me
sometimes I'm not even sure who I am anymore
and even the confusion seems far away
I think I used to love a girl
who seemed alot like me
but that was so very long ago
and she's become a stranger to me
or maybe i'm the stranger
It's hard to have an honest view of yourself
too much room for interpretation
and self-deceit
and the only ones that you can trust
never tell you the truth
Is it just a split-personality
or full blown insanity?
i'd like to reach out and touch
someone, something familiar
but nothing is familiar anymore
Each day I wake
to a world I don't know
and it seems like only yesterday
that I had all the answers
and now I can't even be sure
that yesterday existed at all
If this all seems confused
there's a good reason
there is always a good reason
it's just the understanding that grows elusive
and before you know it
you've spent your life chasing something intangible
and you've grown old and wasted it all
even though your body is still young
(age is in the mind, not the shell)
22 years of hatred and rage
and what do I have to show?
knowledge important only to me
and a fistful of scars that still show
inside, the toll hasn't gone unnoticed
cynical beyond my right
and full of dreams that don't seem so important anymore
there's an irony here somewhere
but I don't suppose it matters
and when i'm gone
they'll talk, as they so often do
no need to whisper anymore
and they'll pose their theories
and relay rumors that they've heard
and in the endless wasteland of their ignorance
they will believe that they knew me
but they never even had a clue
for gossip and speculation are so much more exciting
than the truth they wouldn't hear
this
this rant, this whine, this confession
means nothing at all
for nothing will change
just fill up another little slot in existence
and become a blurry memory
even to me
the more I look at my alien shadow
the more I understand why it seems so strange
because i'm looking up
at a three dimensional creature
whose face seems so familiar
and as he steps, I follow him
until the sun sets
and erases me for another night
I stare at him with eyes I don't have
and struggle to hate him
yet I feel nothing
he has absorbed and I have surrendered
free, in a way that feels like bleeding slowly
emptying
I am the shadow
Copyright ©
Cancer
... [
2005-01-23 22:59:15]
(Date/Time posted on
site)
Advertisments:
|
|
|
|
|
|
Sorry, comments are no longer allowed for anonymous, please register for a free membership to access this feature and more
|
|
All comments are owned by the poster. Your Poetry
Dot Com is not responsible for the content of any
comment.
That said, if you find an offensive comment, please
contact via the FeedBack Form with details, including poem title
etc.
|
|
|
Re: i am the shadow
(User Rating: 1 )
by Former_Member on
Sunday, 23rd January 2005 @ 11:07:42 PM AEST
(User
Info | Send
a Message)
|
| This is so sad. I can't say it's "emotion filled", because it isn't but it's full of depth and overwhelming sadness. You express yourself well. Blessings. |
|
|
Re: i am the shadow
(User Rating: 1 )
by Sapphire_Blue on
Monday, 24th January 2005 @ 07:03:49 AM AEST
(User
Info | Send
a Message)
|
| Sad and powerful, written in emotions strength and feeling cool poem. |
|
|
Re: i am the shadow
(User Rating: 1 )
by hardcoreputa on
Wednesday, 26th January 2005 @ 08:11:54 PM AEST
(User
Info | Send
a Message)
|
roy,
i really felt you when you were saying:
"It's hard to have an honest view of yourself
too much room for interpretation
and self-deceit
and the only ones that you can trust
never tell you the truth"
i've really been having a problem with that very same thing lately, and you put it so simply and powerful. like most of your poems i could read it a thousand times and find something new each time. it feels good to read your poetry again i have really missed it. also thanx for the email, it made me really happy to be missed/ remembered. always ~Apryl |
|
|
Re: i am the shadow
(User Rating: 1 )
by bobotheclown on
Friday, 28th January 2005 @ 08:52:35 PM AEST
(User
Info | Send
a Message)
|
a poem just dripping with pain. I really liked
this but at the same time I didn't because it
hurts to read about someone, never mind a
friend, going through such pain. I hope you
can find hope in your life man everyone
deserves hope and one day you will find it.
Stay strong buddy.
Peace,
Joel |
|
|
|
· 
Poetry
Community
Members
Areas
Reference
Search
Top
Others
